It is now 2021 and hard to believe its been 10 years since I last wrote about my life on the road. A lot has happened and life has taken some twists and turns. As the world starts recovering from a global pandemic, my life choices are currently undergoing internal reflection in order to regain some perspective. While I didn't realize it at the time, some decisions made set us and our family down a rocky road.
In the course of navigating this rocky road, I became bitter, resentful and jealous. This bitterness, resentfulness and jealousy took root in my heart and continued to grow and became so deeply rooted that I never realized how deep it went nor that it would be the cause of the worst kind of betrayal against the two people who loved and cared for me the most.
Recently, these feelings have been revealed and I am currently in the mist of a months- long reflection of my character in order to smoothen out the road. We are not promised that there will be no trials and tribulations if we chose to follow Christ. It is how you handle them that determines the smoothness of the road.
I have been attempting to repair the damaged relationships and while it may not be possible to have the same one, nor would the same one be good as it would be continuing down the same rocky road, I prayerfully hope that a good one can be restored, one that is better and stronger than before.
My favorite ice cream flavor is Rocky Road. The mix of chocolate, marshmallows and almonds is delightfully delicious but I have discovered that the rocky roads of life are not as delightful nor as enjoyable.
Matthew 13:18-22
18 Hear ye therefore the parable of the sower.
19 When any one heareth the word of the kingdom, and understandeth it not, then cometh the wicked one, and catcheth away that which was sown in his heart. This is he which received seed by the way side.
20 But he that received the seed into stony places, the same is he that heareth the word, and anon with joy receiveth it;
21 Yet hath he not root in himself, but dureth for a while: for when tribulation or persecution ariseth because of the word, by and by he is offended.
22 He also that received seed among the thorns is he that heareth the word; and the care of this world, and the deceitfulness of riches, choke the word, and he becometh unfruitful.
